You know what I am really feeling the whole Christmas spirit this time around. It has been amazing just how much I am loving having my beautiful Christmas tree up which is about 8 feet tall and looks like it’s been sprinkled with snow and has the most gorgeous lights that flash different colors, pulses and then white lights and then starts the cycle all over again. I also have a Santa Claus and other Christmas teddies that I had stored away and forgot about. Actually mid rant I think looking at my tree that at least once in my life I must have a white Christmas and be somewhere with snow. I have seen snow from the distance but I have never touched it and in all the Christmas movies it looks lovely. Anyway back to my ramblings, just having that tree up has made me realize that I had something else stolen from me in my life and that was all the Christmas times I should of enjoyed instead of going through an internal hell. This time, this time I am determined it will be different. I still have to get through Christmas day but I can still have a lovely morning and evening at home on my own with my dogs.
We are starting to get so busy at work that the team members are starting to get stressed and snappy. Haha this year I am one of those annoying as hell people that is happy and slips the odd Christmas Carole into the music playlist hahaha. I am staying out of drama’s, stress circles which often all feed off each other, gossip and the good old can’t be fucked attitudes. I am just happy to do my job, do it well and I go home exhausted at the end of the day but am still happy. It’s still not and never will be my dream job but I need it and thank God I have it so I can meet bill payments and vet expenses. So to anyone that might want to kill my buzz here’s my message for you – piss off, I am well overdue this feeling and you will not squash my attitude.
Living life sober, raw and real is giving me the mental power to be able to do this and without sobriety it just would not be possible.
Functioningguzzler 
Oh my, your are angry down in there, aren’t you? In your whole post. That’s not criticism. Rather, an observation. But at least you are feeling some good, the good you can grab onto, at least, with the Xmas spirit. I wish I could offer more to help, other than that. (((((Huhs)))))💜
Hey there Nelson, oh no I’m not angry lol totally opposite I am very happy and was trying to portray that I will not let anyone else’s current mood or shitty attitude change that 🙂
There is a small button on the plug for your Christmas tree lights that allows you to change the light mode and have only the colour and flashing speed you like. I only discovered mine this year after someone else pointed it out after I commented that the fast flashing lights were driving me crazy. 🙄
I’m pleased that I put my tree up this year too.
And I want a white Christmas too. I want to sit by a fire and look out at the snow falling outside. I want to make a snow angel, have a short snowball fight and go for a short walk in snow wrapped up nice and warm.
Summer and Christmas is so normal for me that it might be time for a change. Next year perhaps.
Yes, yes, yes, I want to do all those things to even if it’s just once. Yay to another one putting up their Xmas tree as well! I wish we could all post images in the comments so you could all show me 🙂
I can’t wait to get our tree up! We still do a real one, and will get it this weekend!
xo
Wendy
Yay Wendy, need photo to see when you’ve put it up! Do you have a white Xmas where you are or are you like me and have summer and hot, hot, hot?
We have already had snow!
It’s beautiful!
Oh yay!!! I can’t wait to experience a white Xmas one day it just looks so magical, I hope it is for you all as well xox