Getting Excited Now

I don’t know why but this time around sober I am excited that my one year anniversary. It’s less than a month away now and I’ve never bothered to celebrate it previously in my sober journeys (yep this is not the first time around for me, nor the second etc) but this time around I feel totally different about being sober than I have every other time. Having never celebrated it previously makes doing it this time seem even more important to me.

So today I ordered a new charm for my bracelet and it’s super cute and inside it says “Be Yourself” and that for me is how I want to be forever. I want to be my authentic self, not what someone else wants me to be, not what I think I should be for people, just being ME. Around my friends I want to be myself and not worry that I am to much for them (I love hard and I’m not afraid to show it). I don’t want to have to worry about sounding dumb or that my opinion doesn’t count because I am smarter than I give myself credit for and if I have an opinion then it must count.

I’m also trying to get together with a couple of girlfriends for something like a celebration lunch and would be so excited if we manage it. Hopefully they are both in the country at the same time and we can work around everyone’s work commitments. Anna!!!! I wish you were here so you could come and complete my Soul Sister Tribe ❤

I think previously I have been rather blase about my sober journey and I think, well actually I know that it was because I was always giving myself the option to drink again at anytime like it didn’t matter.

Living life sober, raw & real is the best gift I have given myself BUT it is also the gift I must never take for granted and always realize the importance of staying on this sober journey.

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4 thoughts on “Getting Excited Now

  1. Yippie! That one year marker is SO exciting! Part of me worries it’ll end up feeling like an anticlimax so I’m trying not to focus on it too much. Can’t help myself though…! Trying to rein myself in a little and see it as an achievement and a massive milestone but just one in a line of many, many more. Don’t you agree though, that it feels a little like graduation? 🙂 Like we’ve worked really hard and now we’re about to see if our wings can carry us in the “real world”?? A little mad perhaps… Anyway. Can’t wait to congratulate you when you hit that one year!! Not long left…. xxxxx

    1. It is like graduation!!! I hadn’t thought of that, like we have our masters and now it’s up to us where we let them take us. I was trying to rein in the excitement but then I thought nah damn it be very proud. Yes you first then I will coming charging up from the back of the graduation auditorium. And a little mad pfffft I can do sober mad, crazy I don’t bloody care. XOX

  2. I think milestones are important. They signify to ourselves that sobriety is something we value and celebrate.
    Although we must love one day at a time, acknowledging you have done so consistently is very rewarding.

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